Thursday, December 3, 2009

I miss part of my life...i am so blue...

this post will describe how do i feel right now...

a little bit bored..
[hurm..not really a litlle..but much!]


i feel so boring waiting for my dearest hubby to come home... he's always late... [not always..but everyday..]. i'm watching TV myself!, talking to myself!. I've cook for him but always can't have our dinner together... i think there is less than 4 hours for us to be together at home in one day... [it has been 1 year and 3 months of marriage...but he still don't recognize my relatives including my cousins and aunts!]. The main reasons why is..we don't have enough time to talk to each other.

i'm always done this while driving to work and to come back home
[crying while driving...thinking about my beloved hubby]

he is soooooooo bz and workaholic..i know and i understand that he done these all for me and our family....but with this early stage of marriage...i need more time together... i need you by myself. I've spend my time with my beloved friends just to make myself out from thinking all these things... i know that you won't like it so much when u have read this! but this is what i feel... i don't know how to tell you about this..because when we together i don't want to spoil it with all those sad things and stories...

you always leave me alone..i know and understand why you doing this...but it is so hard and difficult for me to accept it..especially when i have a lot of things to share... a lot of thing to talk... a lot of things to tell...but you wasn't there with me... wasn't there to lend me you ears... wasn't there to lend me your sholder.....

i do know that i am so lucky to have you in my world...

i do know that i am love you so much....

i do know that we were meant to be together forever...

but,

i just don't know why there so difficult for us to have our quality time together like others..


[i can't find words to say...so just have to stop here]

Love you the best....

-END-

6 comments:

Huda said...

memang betul suami isteri macam jasad dan nyawa kan..saling perlu..aku pun xtau nk kata lagu mana, tp aku syorkan ko sms dia selalu setiap hari tnye kabar..tnyela abang dh mkn?abg dh minum? klu dia pelik ko cakapla dh tu nk tnye sape lg klu bukan tnye laki sendiri :)

tryla ek..hehe..

Mask-roll said...

tula huda...btul ape kate ko..cume yg tmbh aku tensen biler aku xmsg...dia xmsg gak...dia kalo kje..lupe bnde lain..

WannssCFS said...

eeeemmmmm start talking to your baby...jgn tension² sgt nanti effect kat baby plak...tumbesaran tak bagus..so start dari skrg buat mende yg boley buat mas rasa happy...

Mask-roll said...

maseh abg wan....insyaAllah...

nadrahazizi said...

korang amik la cuti sama2. pegi vacation, spend time together.. jgn pikir pasal keje..
mas jgn stress sgt tau, nnt effect kt baby.. think positive..

Mask-roll said...

yeah...cuti hjg tahn nie....holiday kat melaka jer... thanks..syg ko!