I miss part of my life...i am so blue...

this post will describe how do i feel right now...

a little bit bored..

[hurm..not really a litlle..but much!]

i feel so boring waiting for my dearest hubby to come home... he's always late... [not always..but everyday..]. i'm watching TV myself!, talking to myself!. I've cook for him but always can't have our dinner together... i think there is less than 4 hours for us to be together at home in one day... [it has been 1 year and 3 months of marriage...but he still don't recognize my relatives including my cousins and aunts!]. The main reasons why is..we don't have enough time to talk to each other.

i'm always done this while driving to work and to come back home
[crying while driving...thinking about my beloved hubby]

he is soooooooo bz and workaholic..i know and i understand that he done these all for me and our family....but with this early stage of marriage...i need more time together... i need you by myself. I've spend my time with my beloved friends just to make myself out from thinking all these things... i know that you won't like it so much when u have read this! but this is what i feel... i don't know how to tell you about this..because when we together i don't want to spoil it with all those sad things and stories...

you always leave me alone..i know and understand why you doing this...but it is so hard and difficult for me to accept it..especially when i have a lot of things to share... a lot of thing to talk... a lot of things to tell...but you wasn't there with me... wasn't there to lend me you ears... wasn't there to lend me your sholder.....

i do know that i am so lucky to have you in my world...

i do know that i am love you so much....

i do know that we were meant to be together forever...

but,

i just don't know why there so difficult for us to have our quality time together like others..

[i can't find words to say...so just have to stop here]

Love you the best....

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